August and September 2015 (before Labor's Day)- I was having financial aid problems and housing problems. However, through chanting Daimoku, and study, I underwent my human revolution and received breakthroughs with both problems.
November 20, 2015- I began chanting to change myself so that my life, family, finances, and relationship with my parents would improve. What ended up happening initially was that I began shakabukuing people (telling them about Nichiren Buddhism and nam myoho renge kyo). However I began to improve my relationship with my mom.
December 15, 2015-January 10, 2016- I was out of school for Christmas break. I shared nam myoho renge kyo with so many people be it online or in person. I even told my parents, my two maternal uncles, and my first cousin about it. I also grew. For those of you who faithfully read my blogs, you might remember the one I wrote about chanting for people's happiness is a way to change poison into medicine. That's something I REALLY did over the break. I chanted for the happiness of everyone who had hurt me between 2006 and 2015. As I did so, the anger and pain that I had harbored for years began to melt and turn into compassion. (This is still an ongoing process). Also, I began see that the high schoolers who had hurt me were just teenagers trying to find their way in a dark maze, and acting out of ignorance. They really were not all monsters. On December 27, 2015, I gave a piano performance of a piece that I had not played for 3 years, and I slayed thanks to Daimoku and Hanon practices. Also, I utilized that event to share nam myoho renge kyo with other performers. Also I turned 26 on January 2.
January 10, 2016-January 19, 2016- I moved back on campus on January 10, and resumed my Daimoku. This time, I prayed for the happiness of those in high school who had hurt me since 2004. That caused me to have a clear look at myself and realize that I was no halo in high school. I might not have always acted nasty, but my thoughts were. I had somewhat of a superiority complex and there were times when it leaked out in school. Also, I reached out to someone who had hurt me 9 years earlier and shared Daimoku with him.
February 4, 2016- I suffered serious sinus problems which zapped my voice and my energy. It was 5 days before my voice came back and even then it was coated with mucus. During that time though, I began to take stock of some choices that I had made and I realized how much I loved singing. So upon regaining my voice, I began to do vocal and breathing exercises again.
March 1, 2016- In case it's not evident, I have the ability to hold a grudge like a sponge holds water. Especially if I am hurt to the point of devastation. So someone had done this a year earlier and I was so bothered that even if his presence burned me up. It had hit a pitch this day because seeing him burned me up so much that I was singing hymns and spirituals. After I did what I had to do, I went to dinner and had some ginger ale to calm my nerves. Then I decided to give Daimoku a shot to see if it could help me overcome that resentment. So I chanted with determination to overcome it. The next day, I saw him again. I am someone who communicates a hell of a lot better writing than speaking. So I wrote out how he had hurt me and passed the note to him. He said that he did not mean to do so, and apologized for it.
March 24, 2016- No breakthrough on this day. Instead I had a disappointing week of two bad test grades. Feeling overwhelmed, I considered giving up Morehouse College and dropping out. However, after calming down, I realized that Morehouse College was connected to my end goals of happy marriage, financial wealth, and happiness; and giving up at Morehouse would make those dreams unattainable. So I began doing something new. I have begun chanting with determination to turn negative aspects of my life into benefits., which is the same as changing poison into medicine.
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